User talk:Tikallover

\Hi! Welcome to Wikipedia! I hope you don't mind an anonymous user welcoming you.

Anyway, I don't want to lecture you about this site, so I'll summarize:

• The help page and the ask a question pages are helpful at the main page.

The rules:

• No shouting (capitalizing all letters)
• No offensive language
• No vandalism (which also means deleting a lot of correct info)

I hope I didn't bore you with these things! But I also want to say it's nice if you write the reason if you change some things at the edit Summary place at the top of "Save Page".

Now, I have a question. Are you from Sonic Heroines? Cause you wrote, "I am practically the biggest fan of her you will ever see, which is why my name is Tikallover!" --anon

Yes, I'm from Sonic Heroines...

That's cool! Do you actually own that whole site? And by the way, I'm also one of Tikal's biggest fans. --anon

Yes, I do ^_^

If you also own the images, could you upload some for Tikal? That would be wonderful! And I'm glad that you made so many Tikal websites. --anon

Well... I don't realy own the images. Sorry...

That's okay. I'm just glad you're helping me improve the Tikal article. So do you know what a lot of people write about Tikal in fanfiction? Cause the fanfiction section is small. --anon

Well, they usually pair her up with somebody like Shadow or Knuckles or Chaos, and they make her more aggressive and modern. That's all I realy know, since I usually don't read fanfictions.

Okay, thanks! So have long have you been a fan of Tikal? --anon

Ever since I first set eyes on her in Sonic Adventure 2: Battle!

So did I! So who do you think would be a good boyfriend for her? I think Tails would be (although it's unlikely). Oh yeah, you should also think about signing this petition. It's a petition for getting back the original Sonic voices for the games instead of the Sonic X ones. --anon

I think I already signed that petition. Also, I know many people hate this couple, but I realy think Knuckles would be good for her.

Actually, Knuckles and Tikal wouldn't be that bad together. I actually think more people would dislike the couple of Tails and Tikal more. --anon

BTW, I looked at your new Tikal Fansite (which is also in the notes section in my Tikal article) and I noticed you have a music clip of Tikal's theme song, and her voice clip. If you don't mind, is it actually possible to put those clips into the article? If you can't though, that's okay. --anon

I don't know how to do that...

Well, that's okay. You know, I read some of your journal entries in DeviantART, and it's terrible what those people did to that bunnie and you. --anon

I just read your most recent journal again. You know, I have something somewhat similar to OCD (I'm sorry, but I don't feel like telling what it is), too. Have you ever told your parents how the people treat you at school? Perhaps you could go to a better one. --anon

My parents know most of what happens at school, and they want to homeschool me, but I don't want that because then I probably won't get into a good college. Besides, I feel like I deserve the treatment I get at school because I throw OCD outbursts in the middle of class and it realy bothers people.

They still shouldn't treat you that way cause you're a really nice person with a good heart and you're not trying to bother them on purpose either. And perhaps your parents want you to stop cutting yourself because your body is a temple of God. --anon

You're not going to try and hurt yourself anymore, are you? --anon

A temple of God?? Um, I probably won't hurt myself again, but I don't know. If I do something very bad I might. Or next year when I have to go back to public school... and throw outbursts again... wouldn't I deserve it then?

That's what the Bible said - your body is a temple of God. And no, you don't deserve it. All you have to do is sincerely repent to God because HE is merciful. --71.118.75.127 03:06, 8 May 2006 (UTC)

Would you mind telling me why you feel so sad and painful? --71.118.80.60 18:14, 27 May 2006 (UTC)

http://tikallover.deviantart.com/journal/ < Read some of my journals, they'll say why I'm sad.

After reading some of them, I understand why you want to cut yourself so much. But hurting yourself really isn't worth it! Perhaps if you had a positive outlook of yourself, it would help, such as being happy that you have a house and enough to eat and drink. Some people in the world actually don't have some of those things. Some people sleep in the streets hungry! Another positive outlook is that you aren't being physically tortured everyday, and you always have someone who loves you. You also do have some friends - people at DeviantArt, me, etc. I don't mean to lecture you or sound unsympathetic for your problems, but I'm just trying to say that cutting yourself isn't worth it. There are also plenty of other ways to let out your pain: listening to music, writing poems (or thinking it in your head - this helped me plenty of times before), and many others. You could also tell someone your problems, like the people at DeviantArt or me. Whenever you have the urge to cut yourself, you could try telling someone at DeviantArt or me...you aren't feeling like I'm lecturing you, do you? --71.104.181.113 01:34, 31 May 2006 (UTC)

No, I don't exactly feel like you're lecturing me. Thanks for your suggestions.

I just read your recent journals, and I think I know some of the answers to your questions. First, you're not Satan or one of Satan's slaves. If you were Satan's slave, you wouldn't be doing Christian things. I'm not exactly sure who are the Beings you're talking about, but I know that there's God. God the Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit (three into one). And God knows everything you do and in a way writes what you do. When you do something bad, God knows you'll do it. It's kind of confusing, but in a way, if you do something bad, God knew it before you even do it. And Satan already controls the world, but later on, in the end, Jesus will come and save everyone (it's in the Bible). God is everywhere, so there's no such thing as enough Beings to go around. Your conscious is the Holy Spirit, and if you don't listen to the Holy Spirit, the Holy Spirit stops being your conscious, which is what happens to serial killers. And you don't need to be kept in chains, you just need more self-control...even I need self-control... and if you die, I don't know. If you believe in God and repent for all your sins (by praying to God and asking Him to forgive you, not by cutting), then you will probably go to heaven, but even still, I don't know. God knows everything, I don't. And you won't go to hell for awhile and be sent back as another "human" - that's reincarnation and it doesn't happen. If you believe in Jesus, Jesus will save you because he died on the Cross for our sins. You shouldn't commit suicide because it is actually a sin. The Bible said you shouldn't kill, and that includes yourself. If you kill yourself, you will go to hell, but if you don't kill yourself, you always have a chance to go to heaven. So will you please stop thinking of killing yourself? I'm worried about you. Many times I think about killing myself, but I don't because I know I don't want to go to hell. As for your other journal, you're not too stupid to do anything. At first, I was afraid to buy things from a store or a restaraunt because I was afraid of talking to people. I can't read social clues, talk to people the right way, I usually can't get jokes, and I often take things too literally. So you're not the only who can't. I can't do a lot of those things. I can't talk right, I get thoughts of doing bad things, and people treat me bad as well. --71.105.3.94 20:44, 1 June 2006 (UTC)

Do you think Jesus will save just the good people and not the bad people? Because I read Revelation and that's what it seemed to tell me. That if you are bad, you will be consumed by fire, and die for real. I think I'm a bad person... Also, you really can't do these things? Do you have Asperger's?

Even if you're a bad person, if you repent sincerely, then God will forgive you. Jesus died on the Cross for everyone's sins, so that's why if you repent genuinely, God will forgive you because HE is merciful and forgiving. And I really can't do those things. I don't think I have Asperger's...I never really tested for it, but I was born prematurely, so that's probably why I can't do those things. --71.104.180.224 19:52, 2 June 2006 (UTC)

Are you still feeling suicidal? --71.105.10.41 17:58, 3 June 2006 (UTC)

When I feel suicidal it comes on and off. Right now I'm not feeling suicidal.

That's good! Perhaps one day, you'll never feel suicidal again. --71.105.12.158 19:12, 5 June 2006 (UTC)

Who do you think the Beings are? --71.105.0.205 19:04, 6 June 2006 (UTC)

I'm not sure. They could be my conscience. My docter thinks they're a result of me being phsycotic, but I don't believe that, because I don't see or hear them, yet I know they exist.

Do you see them as God? --71.105.2.253 20:14, 7 June 2006 (UTC)

Oh no!! Never!

I'm glad you don't see them that way! --71.105.2.253 22:19, 7 June 2006 (UTC)

You know, you act kind of similar to me - I'm sensitive, I feel depressed at times, I'm usually lonely, and people usually dislike me for no reason. Except, I think you're smarter than me. --71.105.2.253 22:56, 7 June 2006 (UTC)

That's really neat that we're alot alike! But I'm not smarter than you...

I think you're smarter! I always make mistakes in my grammer, and I can't say the right words when I usually speak. I also tend to repeat the same words! --71.105.15.174 17:58, 9 June 2006 (UTC)

Sometimes I can't find the right word when I'm talking, and I repeat words too. I don't know about the grammer, though; I seem to be alright with that.

Well, then that probably means you're smarter! So what is the main problem that is causing your depression? --71.105.14.68 18:47, 10 June 2006 (UTC)

Probably all my disorders, which include Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Asperger syndrome (not positive yet), Sensory Integration Dysfunction. and, as my doctor thinks (but I don't think), Schizoaffective disorder. I have definetly been diagnosed with OCD. SID isn't an official disorder yet, but if it was, I'm sure I'd be diagnosed by my occupational therapist. We're not sure about Asperger's yet; I'm going to be tested for it in July. And my doctor said I have Schizoaffective disorder, but since I don't have hallucinations, I don't think I have it. Most of my problems are caused my these disorders. But I'm actually quite comfortable with the fact that there is something wrong with me, so knowing that I'm weird doesn't make me deppressed. It's the hard time these disorders give me that make me deppressed.

I tend to worry a lot as well. Then I have to think about it over and over and over until I get really vexed. --71.104.176.175 18:14, 11 June 2006 (UTC)

That sounds a little bit like OCD.

I don't know if I actually have OCD...what are the other symptoms of OCD? --71.118.79.162 05:14, 13 June 2006 (UTC)

Obsessions and compulsions. Obsessions are thoughts and ideas that you cannot stop thinking about. Compulsions are activities or rituals performed in an attempt to make the obsession go away. It makes the obbsession go away for a few seconds, but then it comes right back and you have to do the compulsion again and again and again and again.... like scratching poisen ivy. If you cannot stop thinking about something and you have an urge to perform a compulsion or you do perform a compulsion, you should look into it.

Well, usually, when I worry, I think to myself that it's not true, and usually, it goes away. Later on, I get a different worry and I have to think the same thing to make it go away. But it's not exactly an activity...or is it? --71.118.79.237 01:11, 14 June 2006 (UTC)

Not really. A compulsion is usually a physical or verbal activity. Two of my biggest compulsions are saying sorry to everything I hurt (whether it be a table or an insect or a person or a stone; the obsession is worrying if I hurt them), and asking someone if there is something on me (like if I leave a store - I worry that a peice of merchandise is stuck to me - that's the obsession; I cannot stop thinking that there is something on me).

Had you ever stopped one of your compulsions before? --71.104.176.175 18:54, 15 June 2006 (UTC)

Not when the compulsion is really strong. If it's just a little compulsion, then I sometimes can not do it, such as one of the sorrys for something I did that is very minor. But if it's really strong, resist is futile. The only way I could not do a strong compulsion is if somebody stopped me (the only way they could do that is chain me up or grab me by my wrists - my parents have tried the latter; I kicked and screamed and swung at them... I was completely insane...). But then the obbsession gets stronger and stronger, making me have horrible stomach aches and nervousness. Sometimes my chest even hurts, as if I was going to have a heart attack. But if I can't fulfil the compulsion, the obsession and the stomach aches, the nervousness, and the chest pain won't go away. That is why I had to kick and scream and... This is kind of hard to explain. :( Uh, have you read Ella Enchanted? She had a curse which made her obey every order given to her. She sometimes tried to resist the orders, but she got stomach aches and headaches and just couldn't not fulful the order.

I see...and yes, I did read Ella Enchanted before. I read it about three times already :)! Anyway, at least you can stop little compulsions...you don't actually think kids are 'buttheads', do you? --71.104.178.133 17:52, 16 June 2006 (UTC)

I vividly remember my Elementry school days, when the other kids would shun me and not let me into their stupid little groups. The boys were all friends, as for the girls, they had two groups. One was the popular girls group, and the other was the unpopular girls group. You may think that I would at least have fitted into the unpopular girls group, but I didn't. They locked me out of their little group and wouldn't even talk to me. They teased me mercelessly and so did the popular girls group. I never got invited to any parties after 2nd grade; I never had any friends. The boys basically ignored me (until 7th grade when THEY were the ones who teased me mercelessly), while they flirted with the other girls. All the other girls would talk about was boys (when they weren't bragging to each other about thier home life). They never let me play with them, and the teacher didn't make them include me. In lunch and recess I would just sit alone or cry alone. In 6th grade one of the kids told the teacher to throw me out the window. The teacher just shook his head. Kids are cruel, and I will never, ever, NEVER forget the torture I endured as a child. Yes, I do think kids are buttheads.

Kids have shunned me before as well and ignored me, but I don't think all of them are buttheads. Just a few. But when you take homeschool, there will be no one to tease you. --71.118.78.43 01:08, 19 June 2006 (UTC)

You're right; I'll be at home. Yay!

So has the Beings ever made you do something bad? --71.118.86.148 02:37, 20 June 2006 (UTC)

If you count cutting as bad. I personally don't think it's bad, and I don't think the Beings do either. I think the reason my doctor and therapists want the Beings to go away is because their afraid they'll make me do something bad to someone else. But I wouldn't do it, even if the Beings told me to, because I know the Beings are good and they don't want me to bad things.

Well, I think cutting is bad because you're hurting yourself. Why exactly do you cut? I think in one of your journals you said it was like the pain was going away. Is that why you're cutting? By the way, I'm sorry if I take a long time to respond - I've been sort of busy lately! --71.105.14.111 01:11, 21 June 2006 (UTC)

There are many reasons why I cut. One of them is that it's as if the pain I felt inside comes out with the blood. Another reason is I hate myself and I am a bad person, so I deserve to be hurt. Another reason is that almost nobody in my real life believes that I am in pain inside. So cutting lets them know that I am at least in some sort of pain. Another reason is that when I do something bad, cutting myself is punishing myself so that I won't do the bad thing again, and therefore by cutting I can become a better person. It's like how parents spank their kids when they are bad. The parents believe that the spanking will help the kids learn not to do the bad thing again.

Usually, I cry instead. So my sadness and pain feels released. You could try that if you like. And even if you think you're a bad person, you don't have to hurt yourself. You could just ask God to forgive you instead by praying, not by cutting yourself. And God knows you're in pain and cutting just isn't worth it. And you shouldn't be punishing yourself like that. You could just ask God to forgive you and never do it again. Besides, what exactly are the bad things you do? --71.118.86.166 23:21, 21 June 2006 (UTC)

Well, sometimes I'm mean to my parents and fight with them. When I used to be in school I would throw outbursts (scream) in class when someone bothered me. Sometimes I'd even kick over chairs and elbow people. I kicked over a chair and pushed a table in the hospital too. Also, I don't go to church and I usually don't pray. There's many, many more things too, but those are the most serious.

Well, you can start praying now. So every night, you could try praying to God and ask Him to forgive you for your sins. And before eating, you could pray to God and thank Him for the food. And it's okay that you don't go to church that often. As long as you read the Bible and pray, I think it's okay. Besides, I feel I do many wrong things and I always feel bad, but I always repent at nighttime. Of course, if I feel really bad, I repent right after I committed my sin. Anyhow, you still shouldn't cut yourself. Sometimes it could manifest into something worser, or you could accidentally cut yourself in the wrong place and die. --71.105.7.189 18:22, 22 June 2006 (UTC)

You're right; I do read the Bible, so I should pray and thank God for my food. Sometimes I cut to avoid commiting suicide. So I cut when I'm suicidal. Sometimes I vision myself locking the door to the bathroom, lying down in the bath, turning the water on but not putting the plug in, and slicing my wrist vein to die a peacefull death of bleeding to death. I would wash as much blood away as I could so the sight wouldn't be hideous for my parents to see. Plus, if I changed my mind about dying, I could bandage my wrist at any time and call 911. Unless of course I get too weak. Then it would be too late... Ugh, putting this in words makes it sound grosser than it did before..

Well, perhaps you should try listening to music or write a poem, story, etc. to get your mind off the sucidal thoughts. Or think of something happy. When I feel suicidal, I just think about what would happen if I killed myself - I would go straight to hell. So you could try these or other alternatives if you like. Just try not to imagine how you would kill yourself or something like that - it might make the suicidal urges worser - unless it actually helps get rid of it. --71.118.85.73 04:59, 23 June 2006 (UTC)

I have to be careful listening to music, because some music can actually make me suicidal. If it's really happy or "uplifting" or peaceful I get sad because my life is not happy like the song. If the song is sad, I'm usually okay. And if it's a love song and not cheesy, I'm usually okay. I can't stand rap music (Yo you know what I'm sayin' it's not even music yo it's like they're just readin' poetry yo). I like jazz, classical, some pop, and a little big of rock (Sonic-ish music).

Well, Christian music is good. And if not music, there's always writing poetry, watching TV, reading a book, and surfing the net. --71.105.4.194 22:41, 23 June 2006 (UTC)

Yeah. I've written some sad poems when I'm suicidal.

So do now, you don't have to cut anymore, right? --71.104.185.164 20:33, 24 June 2006 (UTC)

I haven't cut in a while... Maybe I won't ever again, but I'm not sure. I don't want to hurt you, the other online friends, or my parents. But I do want to hurt myself, so I'm confused.

It's great that you haven't cut in a while! And you really should stop because you don't need to hurt yourself! --71.105.7.83 02:03, 26 June 2006 (UTC)

If it stops me from commiting suicide, it's okay, right? BTW, I had a really weird nightmare yesterday. I was pregnant! :(

I've actually been having some bad dreams as well. I can't actually remember them, but I know they're not good. I would be really frightened if I had a pregnant nightmare. You're okay, right? BTW, there are other alternatives, so you could do those instead of cutting (the ones mentioned above). --71.118.87.143 04:49, 27 June 2006 (UTC)

I'm fine. I probably won't cut for a while now.

That's great! :) So have there been any other problems to cause you depression? --71.105.6.180 19:05, 27 June 2006 (UTC)

I think that's about it. Most everything is covered in the journals. My disorders, the way people treat me... BTW, today was the first day of the evaluation, and the doctor doesn't think I have Asperger's....

Well, isn't it good that it's likely you don't have Asperger's? If you don't have it, you won't have any extra disorders. --71.118.88.144 04:31, 29 June 2006 (UTC)

Being diagnosed is like having an explaination for my behavior. If I'm not diagnosed, then I can't "have a reason to behave the way I do". Plus, the school, when I go back, won't listen to me unless I have an official diagnosis. I am so sure that I have Asperger's... and I just want others to believe me.

If you're sure of it, then I believe you. But even if you acted that way without Asperger's, I wouldn't care. I think you're a nice person and a great friend. --71.105.11.164 03:22, 30 June 2006 (UTC)

Really? I barely think of myself as human... Thank you!

You're welcome. You know, I just took your quiz, and I found out that I'm 18% girly. --71.118.84.195 23:21, 30 June 2006 (UTC)

It wasn't really "my" quiz. I just copied it from someone who copied it from someone who copied it... I think. It's been going around DeviantART. Did you read the other journals too, like the dream one and the medical records one?

Yeah...you don't mind, do you? --71.118.84.195 01:59, 1 July 2006 (UTC)

Of course not! What did you think of my dream? It was weird, wasn't it? I made several sketches to go along with it.

The dream was weird, but also interesting. Are you ever going to make a book about it one of these days? --71.105.14.43 19:37, 2 July 2006 (UTC)

Maybe someday. I'm too busy with other books at the time. I created articles on other books I like, but they're going to be deleted soon... :( Tikallover 02:40, 4 July 2006 (UTC)

Well then, I'll try and help you with the articles you created so they won't be deleted. What articles have you made recently? --71.118.85.206 02:52, 4 July 2006 (UTC)

One was on my new book "Un-Chosen Marriage". The other was on the already-published book, I'm a Weed: One Girl's Story of the Holocaust. But maybe we shouldn't try to save them. I guess they don't meet the criteria for being in Wikipedia. Thanks anyway, but I'll just let them delete them...

But it wouldn't hurt to try, would it? --71.118.84.86 18:47, 4 July 2006 (UTC)

I read the rules for being in Wikipedia, and I'm certainly not notable enough to make it in.

But Wikipedia:Notability says, "not all notable subjects are famous or important." And according to Jimbo, the person who made Wikipedia, says that encyclopedic content "is information which is verifiable and which can be easily presented in an NPOV fashion". He also says this about Qubit Field Theory, which is something of little importance, "I'd say that not more than a few thousand people in the world have heard of it, and not more than a few dozen understand it. (I certainly don't.) It is not famous and it is arguably not important, but I think that no one would serious question that it is valid material for an encyclopedia. What is it that makes this encyclopedic? It is that it is information which is verifiable and which can be easily presented in an NPOV fashion." This means that even if it isn't famous or important, it doesn't matter - it just has to be verifiable with a no point of view. --71.118.84.86 18:59, 4 July 2006 (UTC)

Really? Perhaps then I should continue to try to save them. The articles are: I'm a Weed: One Girl's Story of the Holocaust, Elaine Bowers, and Un-Chosen Marriage.

• Actually, it's no use trying; we're the only ones who want to keep them... :'( I really am not notable. It makes me feel worse about myself, like I'm not good enough for anyone. Serial killers get into Wikipedia... but I never killed one person and I can't make it in... Makes you wonder, huh? --Tikallover 18:22, 5 July 2006 (UTC)
• Though they may have won this time, they all haven't seen the last of me! Oh no! Someday I'll become a great writer, just let them wait and see! And when that happens, just let them try and delete the articles, just let them try! I've had alot of experiance with writing already, and someday, someday... JUST YOU WAIT! *insert evil laughter* --Tikallover 21:02, 5 July 2006 (UTC)

I would like to be a writer one of these days too. Perhaps if we ever became writers, we could co-write together. That would be a lot of fun, huh? --71.105.6.168 05:36, 6 July 2006 (UTC)

That would be great! --Tikallover 14:21, 6 July 2006 (UTC)

You know, I just read your newest journal about pacifism and I agree with you - except for one part. Near the end, you said something about asking a priest to forgive you, but instead, I believe that a sinner should ask God to forgive him/her through prayer; a priest doesn't have to do it. I don't mean to criticize you or anything, but that's what I believe because a priest isn't God. --71.118.87.204 03:31, 7 July 2006 (UTC)

I know a priest isn't God. I think I said the priest should forgive them in the name of God. But now I think you're right. The prisoner (sinner) should ask God to forgive them themselves.

I'm glad you agree with me. :) --71.105.6.247 19:05, 7 July 2006 (UTC)

Did you read my recent journal about stock characters and how I hate DID's?

Yep. And if I had to pick which stock character, I'd be the Oddball, too. --71.105.6.247 02:27, 8 July 2006 (UTC)

You would?

• On another subject, I've written down plot ideas for a new book... Tikallover 11:52, 9 July 2006 (UTC)

Yep! People usually think I'm strange. So what are the plot ideas for your new book? --71.105.2.14 22:25, 8 July 2006 (UTC)

An insane 15-year-old German girl living in 1940 named Margit Hoffmann. She tells about her life in first-person and how she gets sent to an asylum and what happens there. At the end the Nazis will kill all the patients in the asylum as a result of Hitler's T-4 Euthanasia Program.

Sounds interesting! You know, I actually thought of a new story myself. --71.105.7.175 02:04, 10 July 2006 (UTC)

What is it? --Tikallover 13:12, 10 July 2006 (UTC)

It's about a girl named Corina who finds these gloves and when she wears them, she has powers. However, she is so far the only person who can wear them. She later joins an organization to fight against anothe organization. She later finds out why she is the only one who can wear the gloves, and other mysteries. Parts of my story might y change, though. This probably sounds pretty silly, but I always like writing about fictional things. --71.118.76.196 03:51, 11 July 2006 (UTC)

Interesting. It's a great idea! I'm getting the impression Corina is a "chosen one" heroine and must fulfil an ancient prophecy relating to the gloves. Are you going to write a story (or book) about it? I always write about things that actually happened, historical fiction. BTW, what did you think of my story idea? I've written a concept sheet and the first few pages.

Well, I might write a story about it, but I don't think I'll publish it because it probably won't be good enough. And I think your story idea is excellent! It looks interesting. Would you mind letting me look at your concept sheet? --71.118.87.169 03:41, 13 July 2006 (UTC)

Actually, I shouldn't copy it here because someone could steal my ideas.

That's true. But is there any place you can put it where I can see it but no one else could steal it? Is your Deviant Art account a good place? --71.118.87.141 00:03, 14 July 2006 (UTC)

I could E-mail it to you, if you don't mind posting your E-mail address.

• Tomorrow I'll be going on vacation for a week and won't be able to respond for a while. --Tikallover 13:10, 14 July 2006 (UTC)

I'm sorry, but I don't feel safe posting my e-mail address. I'm sorry! And I guess I'll be talking to you next week. I hope you have a safe vacation! --71.118.77.146 01:48, 15 July 2006 (UTC)

I'm back Tikallover 00:39, 25 July 2006 (UTC)

I'm glad! I missed talking to you. :) --71.118.81.207 00:29, 26 July 2006 (UTC)

So what's new for you? PublishAmerica hasn't accepted or rejected my book yet. They must still be reading it. I reeeeealy hope they accept it! Tikallover 15:22, 26 July 2006 (UTC)

Well, I volunteered at a church for VBS and that's pretty much it. So what did you do on your vacation? By the way, I hope PublishAmerica accepts your book, too! I would like to read it! --71.104.190.107 00:15, 27 July 2006 (UTC)

I visited my grandma, cousin, aunt and uncle, hiked, swam, visited museums and went to a famous ice cream place. Tikallover 00:39, 27 July 2006 (UTC)

That sounds interesting! I never ever went hiking. Is it hard? BTW, I've also been editing an interesting article I found called Fulla (doll). Had you ever seen it? --71.118.75.146 00:21, 28 July 2006 (UTC)

I actually created it :) BTW, I think you're really good at editing articles; I'm not that good at it...

• I think hiking is fun, but sometimes hard because I'm out of shape. Tikallover 16:19, 28 July 2006 (UTC)

It's cool that you actually created it! :) And thanks for the compliment! But I think you're pretty good at editinng articles. The parts that you wrote have good context and accurate grammer! BTW, thanks for helping me upload the images of Fulla. --71.104.179.66 19:17, 28 July 2006 (UTC)

Whoops... I was waiting for a message from you when I realized that I hadn't replied... sorry for the wait. The Fulla article is coming along nicely. The pictures make it much better.

• On another subject, I didn't take my morning Geodon today, and I feel much better. When I'm on that drug I feel like I've just been hit on the head very hard and I'm dazed and out of it (without the pain in the head of course). In another way of saying it, drugged up. I also feel very tired and all the good parts of the OCD are gone, for I get sick of things and am not very neat or orginized. But I feel normal now. So much more alive... happier. I hate that drug and I want to get off of it. My mom says she's afraid I'll go crazy without it, even though I just told her I didn't take it today. I'm not going crazy, am I mom? My sorrys are about the same, whether I'm on Geodon or not.
  • Do you think I would by okay if I somehow sneaked around taking it every morning?

I'm glad you feel much better! But I don't think sneaking around is a good idea. If you get caught, your parents might get angry, and that's not good. However, it seems better if you don't take the medicine, so perhaps you should tell this to your mom and explain how you feel much better. But I think in one of your journals in Deviant Art, you said that when you didn't take Geodon, you felt, "When I exhail it feels like the air is being sucked out of me. It's hard to inhail and I feel like I'm out of breath, like I've been running. I have a strange sort of headache. My chest and back hurt, non throbbing..." And it would be terrible to feel that way again. --71.118.77.30 20:43, 1 August 2006 (UTC)

Those were just drug withdrawal symptoms. They happen with almost any drug... that particular day I had not had my evening one either, which I did take yesterday. It's the morning one that makes me feel awful because I'm awake. My mom and I had a long talk today, and she saw my doctor yesterday, and he gave her some smaller doses of Geodon. In the talk, she told me that she didn't want to live with me screaming at her, which is what happened before the Risperdal (a drug similer to Geodon). I reminded her that she and dad had screamed at me too. We didn't really get anywhere, but I think we're going to get me off the Geodon slowely. I hope so anyway. Tikallover 21:32, 1 August 2006 (UTC)

That's wonderful! Maybe you won't have to take Geodon anymore soon! :) --71.118.77.30 00:52, 2 August 2006 (UTC)

I hope so. But my mom says I could go crazy and scare her if I'm off of it. She's afraid I'll hit and scream and cut myself and commit suicide. But I say if she lets those fears stop her from getting me off a medicine that knocks me out, I'll never be off of it. Two days ago I after I took my night Geodon, I broke out in hives all over my body. I still have it, and it's horrible. Perhaps I'm allergic to the Luvox or the Geodon and I'll have to get off of it anyway.

• My mom told me in the talk yesterday that on our infamous vacation to Arizona (I was 10 and my OCD was the worst it ever was), she wanted to give me drugs to sedate me (like knock me out and make me numb) so they could get home. She went to a clinic, but they refused to give me any such drug. I can't believe anyone would want to do that to their kid :( See the Sedative article.

Tikallover 13:52, 2 August 2006 (UTC)

It's terrible that you had a bad reaction to the medicine! I hope you feel better! But perhaps by telling your mom about the bad reaction and about the way you feel, she'll stop giving you it - or at least give you lesser, which may not be the best, but an improvement (hopefully, she won't give you any at all!). But it's terible that she wanted to sedate you during your vacation to Arizona! I'm surprised she actually went to a clinic to try to buy some! I'm glad she didn't get any for you. --71.118.81.5 06:06, 3 August 2006 (UTC)

Hello, you've never known me before. I'm the Stephanie without drugs! I'm off of them, at least for a while, and I feel so wonderful! I feel free! And this is true happiness, not drug happiness. Read my latest journal at Deviantart: http://tikallover.deviantart.com/journal/9583960/ Though I'm physically in bad condition (I didn't sleep one second last night), I don't care. I feel so much better than I have in 4 years. I love this. My parents described the Zoloft (the first mental drug I ever took) as "magic water" (Give me a break!) to try and get me to take it. That won't work ever again. No more drugs for me! No more being chained up by chemicals I take unwillingly so I can please my parents. This morning, no swallowing stupid mind-altering pills! And now that I know what I'm like off of drugs, I never want to be drugged up again! Tikallover 10:41, 3 August 2006 (UTC)

• On a completely different subject, I ordered a Fulla doll from Ebay. I could take some pictures of her for the article when she arrives.

It's great that you're feeling so free and happy! :) And it would be great if you could take some pictures of Fulla. BTW, I hope you never have to take those drugs again! --71.105.12.86 03:27, 4 August 2006 (UTC)

BTW, I just read your newest Deviant Art journal, and if you don't mind, I'll answer them. Do you think I am truly going insane? No. What is your view on hallucinations? I don't know. What exactly do you mean by it? Have you ever had a hallucination or known anyone who has? I don't know anyone who has, but often, whenever I'm in my room during bedtime, if I look at my hands in the dark for a couple of seconds, I start to see little colors change and dark figures. It's spooky, which is why I try to never look at my hands at night...is this a hallucination??? What do you know about them? Hallucination means having illusions. What is the borderline between sanity and insanity and what side am I on or am I in the middle? I don't know about a borderline, but I'm certain you're sane! Insanity might be losing your head completely, like your head can't think and it's a jumble and you can't control yourself at all. However, you can think for yourself and you can control yourself, so I'm sure you're not insane. --71.118.83.19 19:47, 4 August 2006 (UTC)

I hope I'm not insane... I'm not sure if what you see when you look at your hands is a hallucination or not... I don't know much about them. It might not be though. Tikallover 21:47, 4 August 2006 (UTC)

I'm pretty sure you're not insane. You can control yourself and you're able to do what you want when you don't have your compulsions. BTW, I'm just curious, but do you think I sometimes act crazy, weird, insane, maybe? --71.118.83.19 01:51, 5 August 2006 (UTC)

Sometimes I can't control myself if I get very angry... Anyway, I don't think you act funny, at least not when you're talking to me. You seem a little bit (or a lot) like me, only you have better values (like you're more religous). You are very good at editing articles and have great ideas for stories (like the story about Corina and the gloves). You are a very kind and supportive person to me and I don't think you're insane at all. Tikallover 02:14, 5 August 2006 (UTC)

But you can still control yourself afterwards and sometimes, I think people can lose control of themselves when they're very angry. And thanks...People always think I'm a very strange person, so I think I am too...And I actually think I'm a lot like you! :) We both get into arguments with our parents, especially our mom, we both enjoy writing stories, people think we're strange, etc. --71.105.10.68 21:52, 5 August 2006 (UTC)

I sometimes can't stand my dad either... I guess we are alot alike ^_^ Tikallover 22:04, 5 August 2006 (UTC)

If you lived in the same place I did, I would really like to be friends with you (in actual human contact, not through computer). Of course, I don't know where you live, and I wouldn't know if my parents would allow it. --71.104.185.14 21:35, 6 August 2006 (UTC)

I can't tell anyone where I live because it's too dangerous... but it would be neat if we knew each other for real :) Tikallover 19:10, 7 August 2006 (UTC)

Yeah, it would be.  :) --71.104.186.85 05:52, 8 August 2006 (UTC)

So... How are you doing? I'm back on medicine, but no Geodon. Instead, I'm taking Abilify as well as still the Luvox. My doctor wanted to raise the dose of Abilify and I got angry in the office and started yelling... What is my problem? *slaps self*.

I'm doing okay sort of. I just actually just got braces. And it's too bad that you had to go back on medicine. And I don't think you have any problems! It's very reasonable to feel angry at someone who wants to give you more medicine that's going to make you feel bad. I once got so mad at my tic doctor, that he made me get a needle shot for no reason. --71.118.77.23 23:47, 12 August 2006 (UTC)

You got braces? How is it? I'm supposed to get them, but my mom and I don't think I'm ready. Tikallover 01:02, 13 August 2006 (UTC)

They aren't too bad. Just uncomfortable, brushing & dental flossing is a long process, and it can make it somewhat difficult to eat certain foods. So I have to cut them my food into little pieces. My mom didn't think I was ready, but she finally decided to let me have it. --71.118.77.23 02:08, 13 August 2006 (UTC)

It sounds kind of bad... Tikallover 17:49, 13 August 2006 (UTC)

It's not too bad! The dentists actually improved the braces technology. Normally, there used to more wire that would hurt you and you'd have to have an arch support equipment in your mouth (which would be very uncomfortable), but this new style of braces just makes it uncomfortable. Of course, for a long time, I kept complaining about these braces...But I sort of got used to them now. --71.105.10.80 20:40, 13 August 2006 (UTC)

Hmm... I guess it's not that bad then, but still... Anyway, not much is happening with me at all. Tikallover 21:13, 13 August 2006 (UTC)

Often, not a lot of stuff happens at my house either. So how's your new book coming along? --71.118.87.187 20:57, 14 August 2006 (UTC)

Unfortunetly, I'm kind of unstable right now and haven't worked on it for a long time... Tikallover 21:01, 14 August 2006 (UTC)

That's too bad...is the medicine making you this way? --71.118.87.187 03:35, 15 August 2006 (UTC)

It's probably the change in medicine. I stopped the medicines abrubtly because of my hives, crashed, then took different medicines, and now I'm adjusting to them. Tikallover 01:30, 16 August 2006 (UTC)

I hope you feel better and adujust to them soon! --71.105.13.254 23:41, 16 August 2006 (UTC)

Thanks. Me too. Tikallover 01:57, 17 August 2006 (UTC)

So is anything else happening with you? And I'm glad you're not getting any more hallucinations (but I'm still seeing those weird shapes at night!)! --71.118.82.143 21:20, 18 August 2006 (UTC)

A month ago I took a test for what disorders I might have. The results came, and the doctor thinks I have OCD, Depression, Anxiety, and Schizotypal personality disorder. The latter is something new... I don't know much about it yet.

• I'm not sure what you're seeing... If you don't mind me asking, do the shapes resemble anything? I'm just curious.

So what exactly are you thinking of your new diagnosis? And the things I see don't exactly resemble anything in particular, but sometimes they look similar to the little red insects/bugs that crawls around my swimming pool (I have no idea what they are). Otherwise, it doesn't resemble anything. --71.104.185.249 07:59, 19 August 2006 (UTC)

• BTW, I just read the article on schizotypal personality disorder, and I seem to match some of its symptoms. It said that a person having this would have "thinking that influences behavior, superstitiousness or the paranormal", "eccentric behavior or appearance", "paranoid ideation", "experience unusual perceptions", "constricted affect", "unusual thinking & speech, "lacks friends", "ideas of reference", "anxiety (socially)", and "rule out psychotic disorders & pervasive developmental disorder". I have thinking that influences my behavior, eccentric behavior, a somewhat paranoid ideation, I exprience unusual perceptions, I have unusual thinking and speech, I lack friends (except for you and my sister), and I have anxiety. I don't know what's "constricted affect" and "ideas of reference" and "rule out psychotic disorders & pervasive developmental disorder" means, though, or if I have them. I wonder if I have schizotypal personality disorder...--71.104.185.249 08:04, 19 August 2006 (UTC)

Regarding the things you see, I'm really sorry. It must be very creepy to see insect-like shapes... My withdrawel visions were very creepy too, so I know how you probably feel.

• About you having schizotypal personality disorder, I'm not sure, but if you're pretty sure you have it, maybe you could get tested for it, like I got tested for Asperger's. But since I was wrong about the Asperger's, you could be wrong too... I'm not sure. If I knew you for real and knew more about schizotypal personality disorder, I might be able to be more certain. I don't know... Tikallover 16:10, 19 August 2006 (UTC)

Well, I won't let the prospect of having it or not let my hopes down! What I don't know can't hurt me I guess. So are you feeling more adjusted to your medicine now? --71.105.7.69 07:10, 20 August 2006 (UTC)

I didn't mean that you should let your hopes down! Whether you have it or not, you're still the same person. And if you do have it, you've always had it anyway, even if you didn't know it.

• I'm pretty much adjusted to my medicine now, but for some reason I just don't feel like writing right now. But I am making a lot of pictures for DeviantART. Tikallover 18:36, 20 August 2006 (UTC)

That's good to know. And I'm glad you adjusted to your medicine! And I saw your pictures - you're a good artist! I often like drawing myself. --71.118.78.19 00:14, 21 August 2006 (UTC)

Well to tell the truth... I'm not that good of an artist. Most of my pictures are traced and then modified. :( What did you think of the Un-Chosen Marriage cover idea? Tikallover 01:29, 21 August 2006 (UTC)

That's okay. When I first started drawing, I started to trace a little bit. And I like your cover idea! --71.118.75.95 03:28, 22 August 2006 (UTC)

Thanks! You know, I got screwed by PublishAmerica. They most likely didn't even read my book, yet they rejected it :( . Tikallover 17:09, 22 August 2006 (UTC)

That's terrible! I hope you can find a publisher who will read yor book. From the book samples you gave me, I can tell it's a pretty interesting story. -71.104.176.89 01:37, 23 August 2006 (UTC)

Thanks. Is anything new happening with you? Tikallover 02:44, 23 August 2006 (UTC)

Not really, but I have been drawing a lot of pictures lately. Is anything new happening with you? --71.104.177.39 19:58, 23 August 2006 (UTC)

My homeschool starts in about a week. I'm just curious, what kind of things do you draw? Have you scanned any of your drawings? Tikallover 21:50, 23 August 2006 (UTC)

My school starts this Monday. I'm homeschooled, actually. And I like drawing human versions of Tikal and human versions of Shadow. I also like to draw Eagle and Nova from the anime and manga, Magic Knight Rayearth. I also like drawing Deedlit from Record of Lodoss War, and Ukyo Kuonji and Shampoo from Ranma ½. I also like drawing Maya from Tenjho Tenge. And I have scanned some of my drawings, but they aren't on any websites. I'd actually like to get a Deviant Art account, but I have a feeling my parents won't want me to. --71.104.182.190 20:00, 24 August 2006 (UTC)

Neat! I don't know who most of those characters are, but it's cool! I once drew a human Tikal, but it wasn't very good. This is the first year I've ever been homeschooled. It's neat that you're homeschooled too! Tikallover 21:09, 24 August 2006 (UTC)

Yeah, it is! I just hope I don't start arguing with my parents again! BTW, I actually base Tikal's face on a character from another anime, so I'm not exactly original. And, I'm just curious, but what's required to get a Deviant Art account? --71.118.79.4 19:32, 25 August 2006 (UTC)

I joined DeviantART back in 2004, so I don't really remember... but I was only 12 years old, so it must not have been difficult. You don't have to pay unless you want to subscribe, which I'm not. I've never subscribed, so I don't think it's nessesary. I have an idea though. I'll log out and go through the steps of joining again except I won't join. Here it is:

1. Okay, you have to put in a username, password, real name (you can just put a description of yourself - that's what I did, I just wrote "depressed"), E-mail address, gender, date of birth, and country.

2. Now you can select choice {pay} membership or free membership. I suggest you select free membership.

3. You can choose to sign up for the DeviantART newsletter. Then you must agree to the terms of service and to abide by the deviantART ettiquette policy.

4. Now you click "Continue".

5. I don't know what's next... but it shouldn't be too bad. Maybe that's all if you selected free membership. Tikallover 23:42, 25 August 2006 (UTC)

Do I really need to give my E-mail address? --71.118.79.193 02:19, 27 August 2006 (UTC)

I think so... sorry. Tikallover 02:34, 27 August 2006 (UTC)

Well, let me ask my parents, and perhaps they'll think it's okay. But, somehow, I don't think so. So are you planning to draw anything new? --71.118.79.193 02:47, 27 August 2006 (UTC)

I don't know what I'll draw next... Tikallover 05:45, 27 August 2006 (UTC)

So what type of shows do you like to watch? --71.104.177.221 00:02, 28 August 2006 (UTC)

.....You read my journal, didn't you? *is embarrased* ^_^; But that's okay. It is VERY odd that I like shows like Spongebob. But I did used to think that it was very STUPID. It still is, but in a good kind of way for the most part. Tikallover 00:17, 28 August 2006 (UTC)

I don't think it's odd at all. I watch some pretty silly shows myself, actually. --71.104.177.221 03:11, 28 August 2006 (UTC)

Hmmm... once again, proof that we are a lot alike! ^_^ Tikallover 17:23, 28 August 2006 (UTC)

Yep! BTW, today, my homeschool has started, so my replies might be late. --71.104.181.58 21:11, 28 August 2006 (UTC)

Mine starts next Tuesday. Tikallover 22:37, 28 August 2006 (UTC)

So I guess you get lots of time off for a while, huh?  :) So do you have any other art accounts besides the Deviant art one? I don't, but I sometimes use my daddy's Amazon account. 71.104.181.141

You can submit art on Amazon? Anyway, I used to have a Fanart Central account before I moved to DeviantART. But that's all. Tikallover 19:38, 29 August 2006 (UTC)

Well no, but actually, what I meant to ask was if you had any other accounts besides the deviant art one. I accidentally wrote "art account" when I meant to say accounts. Sorry! Anyway, how does your fanart central account look like? --71.118.76.179 21:40, 29 August 2006 (UTC)

It's inactive, with only a few of my oldest pictures. Tikallover 22:52, 29 August 2006 (UTC)

Sorry about the long reply! Anyway, you deserve to live. I don't think lesser of you at all. --71.104.188.56 05:06, 1 September 2006 (UTC)

Thanks. :) Tikallover 05:59, 1 September 2006 (UTC)

So have you been feeling suicidal lately? --71.104.186.74 02:16, 3 September 2006 (UTC)

I've been feeling down, but not suicidal. In a couple days my homeschool starts :( . Tikallover 02:24, 3 September 2006 (UTC)

I'm glad you haven't be feeling sucidial! You know, I've actually been kind down myself (I just had a small argument with my mom last week!) It's too bad your homeschool starts next week, but it's gotta be better than public school, right? --71.105.5.134 19:26, 3 September 2006 (UTC)

It'll definetly be better than being hurt emotionally by the bullies all day. Tikallover 22:45, 3 September 2006 (UTC)

Yep! :) --71.105.14.111 18:26, 4 September 2006 (UTC)

So... *searching for something to say*... I'm just curious, what articles have you been editing lately? As for me, I've been editing the Barbie article and the ones about her siblings. For some reason, I love that doll! I recently found my aunt's old vintage Ponytail Barbie, which she gave to my sister years ago, which went to me when I was littler and didn't know what the doll's collector's value was. I think she's a #7 Ponytail. I combed her hair, washed it, gave her a bath (wiping all the storage dirt off her), dressed her in a vintage-like outfit, and re-ponytailed her hair. Now she looks almost new, except for the haircut she got probably from my aunt years ago. Let's see... I have three vintage dolls, one is a vintage Ken doll, also from my aunt, one is a Living Skipper doll, and the other is the #7 Ponytail I mentioned. I'm searching to get my hands on a Straight Leg vintage Skipper with titian hair.... uh, do you have any idea what I'm talking about? I'm using collector terms! (Sorry for writing too much). Tikallover 22:16, 4 September 2006 (UTC)

Yeah, I pretty much know what you're trying to say. I actually used to have a collection of Barbie dolls myself! Spice Girls, one whose hair could change color, and a black-haired Barbie doll. And I've been editing Rena (.hack), Hikaru Shidou, and I'm still working on improving Fulla (doll). --71.105.14.111 22:45, 4 September 2006 (UTC)

Neat! :) Tikallover 23:21, 4 September 2006 (UTC)

You seem to be more of a doll expert than me, though. I've been into more manga/anime lately and games. So do you read any manga? --71.105.14.111 03:43, 5 September 2006 (UTC)

I don't know much of anything about manga or anime, except that when I was littler I used to like Sailor Moon, and the one girl I talked to in school last year liked Yu Gi Oh (is that how you spell it?) I think the style they are drawn in is cute, with the big eyes and stuff. Tikallover 17:18, 5 September 2006 (UTC)

I actually used to watch Yu-gi-oh and Sailor Moon. And yes, that's how you spell it. So how many dolls do you have? --71.105.5.60 05:29, 6 September 2006 (UTC)

Um, I just realized that I wrote way too much... Sorry... O_O Guess that's why I'm a writer! So I bolded the essensial information. That's all you should read. I just kept going on and on and on about needless junk that no one is interested in but me... I didn't want to get rid of it because I spent um, twenty minutes typing it... Well, I still have many of the ones I had when I was 3-11 (and used to cut their hair too short and pulled their heads off to switch thier bodies... unfortunetly, the hook that held their head to their neck often broke when I did this, so I have several dolls that have seperate heads and bodies :( .... Poor little dollies... *sob* But someday I could find new hooks on Ebay or somewhere and fix the broken dolls... I can't get rid of them because I loved them as a child so much). ANYWAY, so I have those, and then I have the ones my sister gave to me as she grew up, and then I have the ones I got and get in what I think of as the stage where I am much more careful with my dolls and love them in an adultish kind of way (the childish way was when I got a Teen Fun Skipper doll in a pink two-piece swimsuit and loved her so much that I combed nearly all her hair out... She was my favorite doll as a child and I will never forget her... but I was a spoiled brat and thought I didn't love her anymore.. so I... I... I got rid of her :( Oh, what I wouldn't do to get her back!!!! She was my first Skipper doll ever, and I had wanted one for years. I think Skipper is my favorite member of the Barbie family). Nowadays I take care of my dolls, I brush their hair carefully if at all, I almost never switch the bodies or take the heads off, I dress them in either store-bought dresses (or pants if they are male dolls) or home-made dresses made by me or my mom (you can tell if they're made by me. They look awful!) Those dolls I keep in a Barbie castle I got when I was either 10 or 11. They all have parts in my make-believe fantasy medieval game that takes place in the twelth century. They all have more or less perminent names and roles. Just a warning, you may think I'm spoiled when I tell you how many I have... :( But dolls are probably the only thing I spend my money on these days. Even back then, I rarely was interested in other toys. Okay, so here are my guesses on the numbers; I'll count in a minute: 3-11 dolls: 20. Dolls from sister: 10. Recent dolls: (better sit down) 50. And now I'm going to go count my Barbie dolls! Time card: 10 minutes later: One hundred and thirty three Barbie and Barbie-like dolls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh. My. Gosh. I didn't think I had THAT many! I mean, 133 is alot of dolls! I never counted before! I should have! And another is perhaps on the way, if I win her! That's the straight-leg titian vintage Skipper, whom I've already named 'Rini". Well, I DO remember the names of the recent dolls of the palace: Queen Valerina, King Harold, Princess Valerina, Princess Sarah, Princess Kristina, Lady Infantra, Lady Eleanor, Lady Margaret, Lady Erika, Rona the Arrow Fetcher, Addy the Maid, Tania the Scullery Maid, Arina the Scullery Maid, Marian the head cook, Isla the Nanny, Hadley the Maid, Livia the Maid, Kayley the Maid, Nicoleta the Baby, Rosie the Peasant, Gretel the Peasant, Bob the Stablehand, Tommy the Stable Boy, Alex the Stable Boy, Tia the Lady Knight, Elijah the Maskervei (don't ask!), Squire Phillipe, Squire Bernice, Squire William, Sir Alan the Knight, Mark the Arrow Master, Professor Aiden, Professor Lawrence, Professor Caskin, Professor Sheridan, Rita the Townswoman, HOPEFULLY Rini, then of course there are the dolls that don't live in the palace: Lady Wickersham, Bernice, Fawn, Angel, Kelly, Ellie, Summer, Katie, Cameron, Cindy the Actress, then of course the dolls from countries other than Valin: Queen Beatrice, Princess Annika, Queen Siokia, Princess Sioki, Abigail the Servant, uh... uh... I think that's all. Whew. I did that all at the top of my head! Okay... So yeah. Even I have no more to say on the subject at this point. Just let somebody ask me how many dolls I have and I write 750+ words about it. I think I need to start writing again...Tikallover 01:22, 7 September 2006 (UTC)

That's okay. What you have to say is interesting and I read all of it! Actually, I kinda skimmed all the names, but I read pretty much everything else. It's cool that you have that many dolls! :) I actually tend to go on and on about things as well, especially topics I like. So I forgot - did you start homeschool already? If you did, how is it? My homeschool is pretty much like last year, except that the school is tougher. --71.104.183.17 07:06, 8 September 2006 (UTC)

You didn't have to read all of it!! I'm really sorry... I went nuts. Anyway, my homeschool has started, and I think it is much easier than regular school. :) (Must... not... say... more!!) Tikallover 23:07, 8 September 2006 (UTC)

No really, it's okay. You can write as much as you want cause I really do think it's interesting. And I'm glad you think homeschool's easier than public school. So what's your favorite subject so far? I think I like...hmm...I guess writing the Vocabulary and grammer not's that bad. I really dislike history though. --71.118.85.118 21:36, 9 September 2006 (UTC)

History I don't like either because it is always so sad. Writing in school is different from writing a novella... I don't like how they tell you what to write. I hate grammer, I have math... I hate everything about any kind of school :( . Tikallover 00:45, 10 September 2006 (UTC)

Well, I do agree that school is never fun, but I guess in the future it will pay off since a good education means a good job. :) So have you been up to anything new lately? --71.104.188.14 06:12, 10 September 2006 (UTC)

Once again, I bolded all you should read. Please don't read the whole thing :( Yeah, school does pay off... I do want a good job. I'm just curious; do you know what you want to do? I definetly don't. Anyway, I've basically been doing schoolwork, but I have sad news... I didn't win Rini the skipper doll :( . But perhaps I can get an Irish Princess doll. Once I can get these two dolls, I can finish one of my other dolls, Professor Lawrence's story. It's all planned out. It goes much like a Shakespere play: When Lawrence was much, much younger, he taught the princesses and princes of Ireland. He and the oldest princess fell in love. Since in my game Ireland is not like Valin, and the oldest prince becomes king instead of the princess becomeing queen, the princess did not have to marry a prince so she could become queen. However, Lawrence was not suitable for her in the eyes of her parents, so they bid farewell. Many years later, after he figured the princess had married someone else, he met a townswoman named Rita. Something went on between them, but Lawrence's parents this time would not let the two marry! However, now the unmarried Rita has a daughter named Rini who l o o k s j u s t l i k e h i m . . . . . But Lawrence does not know this. He is now an old monotoned voiced professor of history, who is actually depressed for losing the two women of his dreams. But nobody in Wanchov Palace knows this. But one day Rita tracks him down and comes to the palace and asks to speak with him. They have quite a conversation, and the next day, Lawrence meets his daughter. By law they either have to marry or keep it a secret. They decide to marry in a few months, as nobody is against it now. But the story does not end happily. The Princess of Ireland had been very much in love with Lawrence. She absoulutly straight-out refused to marry anybody. So she was an old maid, and since her parents the king and queen died, and her oldest brother is now King, she gained permission to leave Ireland and seek out the love of her life, whom she had not heard anything about in many, many years. She didn't know about Rita or Rini or anything. It took her a year to track and find him, and she arrived in Wanchov Palace a month before Rita's and Lawrence's wedding. Though about 28 years old now (older back then than now), Princess Riona was still beautiful and everyone was amazed and shocked when she told them she was looking for "My dear Lawrence". They told her he was getting married to a woman named Rita who has a daughter of his in one month. "My love doth hast forgotten me!" she cried! Meanwhile, Lawrence was teaching history to the princesses and his daughter, whom he had come to love. Addy the Maid came into the room and told him a princess of Ireland wanted to see him. Lawrence dropped his book. "Ri...Ri... Riona?" he whispered, "It beeth not true!!" He went and saw Princess Riona, who was sitting on a chair facing the wall. She turned and faced Lawrence with tears in her eyes. "Dost thou remember me? Didst thou forgeteth me?" Lawrence stood there mouth agape. The princess continued. "I refusethed to marry anyone else. I searchethed far and wide for thee for a year. I never forgoteth thou. I thoughteth thee still loved me. But thee dost not." Professor Lawrence finally spoke up. "I didst not forget thou, but I thought thou had married and forgotten me! I kneweth not!" Riona and Lawrence spoke and cried for hours, but Lawrence chose Rita and his daughter. The princess understood, but was still heartbroken. Lawrence got married to Rita, Rini was the flowergirl, and Princess Riona was the maid of honor. The princess had nowhere to go but back to Ireland, but Queen Valerina welcomed her and bid her to stay in the palace until she decided what to do. Anyway, I hope I get the dolls!

It's too bad that you didn't win the doll! Anyway, I'm not sure what job I would get. Possibly engineering or maybe not. My fantasy job would be an author and an actress, or perhaps a cartoon voice acting actress. Of course, that's only in my dreams. So what's your fantasy job? BTW, please don't feel upset or anything, but I read it all. I didn't mean to! I was originally going to skim over, but then it sounded interesting so I started reading it. I'm sorry! It was really interesting! If you're upset about it, I won't do that again. But your story really is quite imaginative and well-planned out. It would make a nice book! --71.105.13.64 18:45, 12 September 2006 (UTC)

I'm not upset! I just don't want you to feel you HAVE to read it, because you don't. My fantasy jobs would be acting and a writer too! Tikallover 00:23, 13 September 2006 (UTC)

I'm glad you're not upset. I think it's very interesting (as I keep saying!), though it would be nice to see Riona with Lawrence. Of course, I'm just thinking that cause that was his first love, but he and Rita is good couple as well. So do you know what will happen to Riona now? And it's cool that your fantasy jobs are the same as mines! So what type of shows would you like to act? I would like acting a comedy show, but people tell me my face matches a character that is unintelligent and often lost (not ditzy, though). --71.118.87.251 04:48, 13 September 2006 (UTC)

The main reason Riona and Lawrence will not be together is because Lawrence has a daughter with Rita. I'm thinking since the only choice Riona has is to go back to Ireland, which isn't really that much of a home to her anymore, the Queen of Valin could allow her to stay in the palace. After she gets over not being able to be with Lawrence, my mom had the idea that she could get into something she could enjoy, perhaps gardening, and take care of a garden in the palace grounds. And perhaps she and Lawrence could be friends. She could even be friends with Rini... though that's not too romantic, seeing as they were once in love. It isn't very nice, in fact it's very mean, that people tell you your face looks unintelligent! It actually reminds me of a time a drew a picture of a monster in school and this boy said, "It's your face." Anyway, I would like to act out the part of a strong and intelligant woman who isn't very pretty (I couldn't play a pretty part anyway since I'm not pretty), but yet an intruging (spell?) character. Maybe she could fall in love but it doesn't work out. I would NOT want to play the part of a damsel-in-distress or someone shallow. Tikallover 16:54, 13 September 2006 (UTC)

Gardening sounds like a good idea! And it's not nice either that the boy thinks the monster is your face. And I'd like acting a heroine type character, too. I wouldn't mind acting someone shallow who turns good at the end though. I remember watching a movie of someone shallow who, by a fairy's spell, had to switch place with a maid. After cleaning and cooking and doing lots of chores, became a good person. I wouldn't want to be a damsel-in-distress either, though. I would like to fall in love as well, and there are complications, but they end up together. Or maybe it seems like they dislike each other, but they end up together. So what type of movies do you usually watch? I like watching different types of comedies. --71.104.180.32 19:07, 13 September 2006 (UTC)

I don't watch many movies.... So I'm not sure what I like. Tikallover 14:24, 14 September 2006 (UTC)

That's okay. I don't watch a lot myself, since I'm usually only allowed to watch during summer. BTW, I just read your newest jounral, and I believe your parents do love you. Even if they threaten you, they actually do care for you. If they didn't, they wouldn't have given you homeschool or the medical things you need. They also wouldn't take you to places or do other little things. My parents tend to kinda threaten (I don't know if that's the appropriate word) me to take me to full-time public school, but I know they love me, and I'm sure your parents love you too. They are probably just annoyed and are getting upset about what they have to spend, but I'm sure they love you. Although I do admit that what they say isn't nice, I'm sure they love you. --71.118.81.11 19:56, 14 September 2006 (UTC)

I hope you're right. I just wonder why they make those threats. So anyway.... what do you think of my fancharacter Ruby the Echidna? There are some pictures of her on my deviantart gallery. I'm working on a description for her. Tikallover 03:59, 15 September 2006 (UTC)

Well, I think she and her story is very interesting. Although, there are other echidnas besides Tikal and Knuckles. There's Lien-Da and Julie-Su. Besides Tikal, Lien-Da is my next favorite echidna, after Knuckles. Perhaps you could have a story where Em saw Lien-Da, and he likes her and rather marry her than marry his sister. However, Lien-da is actually Knuckles's enemy! So his parents may not approve of it. Or perhaps Em could like Julie, but she's not Knuckles's enemy. Or maybe, for another subplot, Knuckles still has feelings for an ex-girlfriend or another girl, such as Rouge or Julie-Su or someone else. Of course, you don't have to have these stories, but I would find it interesting. BTW, I actually make little stories for Tikal, too, except I pair her up with different characters, cause I think she's a cute couple with several characters. For instance, I think she'd look good with Tails, Shadow, or Jet, so I imagine different stories with the different characters. Of course, I'm kinda running out of ideas right now for her stories, and so I'm making stories for the characters in Skies of Arcadia instead. But if you have any other ideas for Tikal, there would be great! Anyway, I would very much like to see Ruby and Em's story more developed!...I wrote way too much, didn't I? --71.105.12.101 07:19, 15 September 2006 (UTC)

You didn't write too much! Anyway, in the games, Knuckles and Tikal were the last echidnas. I think you're thinking of the comics, where there were more echidnas. My fanfiction is based on the games because I've never read the comics. Sorry.... Tikallover 15:28, 15 September 2006 (UTC)

Well, that's okay. Perhaps one of these days we could co-write a fanfiction together somehow, and we can put both of what we know together. Like, I'd write about the comic book parts you don't know about, and you can write about your characters, Em and Ruby, and we can both write about Tikal and Knuckles. --71.118.81.133 19:22, 15 September 2006 (UTC)

That would be neat to do sometime! Tikallover 00:02, 17 September 2006 (UTC)

I just read your newest journal, and I'm very glad you didn't cut! I felt worried when you thought about it. But please don't think about hanging yourself, you'd make a lot of people sad...and, I know that this is a change of subject, but if you want to make your parents happy, you could try asking if you could do any chores around the house, such as folding away clothes, putting away dishes, vaccuming, etc. You don' thave to, but it might help. And again, I'm glad you didn't cut and that you have an incentive to live! --71.118.78.76 19:31, 17 September 2006 (UTC)

I don't know why my parents think I'm super lazy... I mean, I am lazy, but I do my chores, which include setting the table every day, washing the car windows, making the Friday dessert, ect, ect. I often fold the towels after they come out of the drier even though that isn't one of my chores. I cleaned and vaccumed the whole basement a couple days ago, and then I also swept and picked up all the acorns from our deck yesterday. I guess that's not much though... And I DO complete my schoolwork eventually... but being with my mom and dad so much, unlike being away for them for seven hours in public school five days a week, is getting on all of our nerves. Well anyway, I feel much better now, and I think my parents do too. I just wish my dad would ease up on the insults... I'm now taking the same anti-deppresant my mom takes... maybe that will help me, because she said it helped her. Tikallover 21:54, 17 September 2006 (UTC)

Well, I think you're not very lazy at all! I mean, you do more chores than me! And perhaps if you talk to your dad about what he says to you, he might understand how you feel and stop, or at least lessen it. And I do hope your anti-depressant works for you! And again, I'm glad you had the will to stop yourself from cutting. --71.118.78.76 02:19, 18 September 2006 (UTC)

Thanks. So what have you been up to lately?

Nothing really. Just the usual school, and then hobbies - if there's time. Have you been doing anything new lately? Is your fanfiction finished yet? --71.118.86.68 21:38, 18 September 2006 (UTC)

Actually I've been working more on the pictures for the fanfiction... Tikallover 23:28, 18 September 2006 (UTC)

I just saw it today. You draw good! Right now, I'm currently drawing Maya as a couple with Scourge. Actually, it's a co-drawing with my sister. I draw Maya and the background, and she draws Scourge and colors everything else, except for Maya - I do that. My next project is drawing Vyse as a couple with Nova! I don't exactly think they'd be the best couple, but I just wanna draw them together cause it's fun. Besides drawing, I'm writing a book version of the game, Skies of Arcadia Legends. Anyway, I really look forward to seeing more of your drawings! :) --71.105.6.239 07:15, 19 September 2006 (UTC)

Interesting. I'm not really sure who those characters are, but I'm sure your drawings will be good! Tikallover 17:04, 19 September 2006 (UTC)

Thanks! So what are all the couples you support? I like...hmm...Tikal and Tails, Tikal and Shadow, Tikal and Jet, Tikal and Knuckles, Sonic and Sally, Ukyo and Sonic, Sonic and Wave, Scourge and Shampoo, Maya and Dark, Hikaru and Eagle, Vyse and Fina, Vyse and Aika and Vyse, Ramirez and Fina, Knuckles and Rouge, Knuckles and Julie-Su, Shadow and Maria, and Shadow and Amy...I didn't know I liked that many couples...there are actually some cross-overs from other shows/games, but that's the characters I think will go well together. My favorite couples are Amy and Shadow, Tikal and Tails, and Sonic and Sally. --71.104.185.129 19:17, 19 September 2006 (UTC)

My favorite couple is Knuckles and Tikal (Hey, I'm even making a fanfiction where they're married with children!) Then I like Shadow and Rouge (but I don't like how Rouge is a damsel-in-distress in Sonic Next-Gen), Shadow and Maria, Cream and Tails, and.... that's it. I don't know who Amy could go with... but I no longer support Sonic and Amy. Amy is just too much of a damsel-in-distress with Sonic. Princess Elise is too, but perhaps Sonic and her will be an official couple anyway. Tikallover 21:12, 19 September 2006 (UTC)

Rouge is a damsel-in-distress in Sonic Next-Gen? I didn't know that. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I think Cosmo goes well with Tails, too. And I also forget to mention that Amy and Sally goes well with Knuckles, too. Princess Elise goes well with...I don't know - I don't know her personality really. You know, there haven't been a lot of heroines lately, but there are some. Tikal (our favorite character! :)), Julie-Su, Rouge the Bat (except for in Sonic Next-Gen), Cream (sometimes), Cosmo (sometimes), Sally (sometimes), Mina (sometimes again!), Lien-Da (I don't know if she counts cause she's a villain, though), and Maria (I think). And there are other heroines besides the Sonic games, which is the three Magic Knights, Yuna & Rikku & Paine (only in Final Fantasy X-2, not in Final Fantasy, Sailor Moon girls, and Aika. In books, there's the Ella Enchanted girl, Two Princesses of Bamarre main character, and Howl's Moving Castle girl. So what type of damsel-in-distress do you like at all? I think that if only once it happens, it's okay, perhaps. If the girl's strong-willed. Though, being the heroine's more interesting. --71.104.182.22 08:06, 20 September 2006 (UTC)

Yes, Rouge is rescued by Shadow in Sonic Next-Gen... Anyway, I'm glad that there are a lot of heroines. My vision of a damsel-in-distress is someone who is kidnapped or almost hurt (but never actually hurt) in some way, and doesn't try to help themselves. Almost everyone is capable of somehow trying to help themselves... so I don't think I like any type of damsel-in-distress. By the way, I read what that person said about the Fulla (doll) article, and I don't think what they said is true. You did a great job on it! Tikallover 13:49, 20 September 2006 (UTC)

Thanks. You did a great job, too! Hey, we should really try and make it into a good article! I know we can do it! :) So, I'm just curious, but do you mind a damsel-in-distress that tries to help herself, but just can't cause of something (I'm sorry about the vagueness!)? --71.104.181.5 07:40, 21 September 2006 (UTC)

Well, maybe if she is disabled in some way it's okay. I hope we can make the Fulla (doll) article into a good article! I'm not quite sure what can be improved on it though... Tikallover 19:48, 21 September 2006 (UTC)

Well, it just needs to have a neutral point of view and not make it sound like Fulla's better than Barbie. And we need to write the article so that people not possessing Arabic knowledge could read this easily (not everyone knows that Arabic women are traditionally covered, so we have to write that down somewhere)...that looks hard...but I'm sure if we put our heads together, we'll think of a way to fix it. I removed some of the quotes and wrote it in plain text instead (with a little rewrite), so that should help. --71.105.3.234 21:20, 21 September 2006 (UTC)

Hmmm... It seems to be coming along nicely with your edits. I'm not quite sure what I can do, is there anything you need help with? Tikallover 23:19, 21 September 2006 (UTC)

Well, you could help me add information to Fulla's critcism and what people in the western part of Earth think about her. --71.104.176.105 07:27, 22 September 2006 (UTC)

I know many Western people are disgusted by women in the Middle East wearing those abayas, hijabs, veils, and headscarfs every time they go outside. I myself don't like it. And a doll who promotes it surely wouldn't be too popular. (I bought a Fulla doll without a hijab, and I only bought one because I thought she was a pretty doll. I did feel some guilt, however... but anyway...) However, that would be original research... so I'll have to look for that information on one of the many Fulla news articles on the web. Tikallover 08:04, 22 September 2006 (UTC)

Yeah, I don't exactly like how the womem have to wear those things. But why would you feel guilty? It's just a doll, and she doesn't even have a hijab, so I think it'd be okay... Anyway, it'd be great if you could find some websites discussing those subjects. --71.104.188.191 20:52, 22 September 2006 (UTC)

I try and look around for one. Is there anything else I can do? Also I wanted to say again that I think you're really, really good at editing articles... someone said in a peer review that the prose an article I heavily edited was "disgraceful"... Either I'm waaaay to sensitive to critism or some registered users on Wikipedia are not very nice (the deletion discussions of my book's articles, the comment that user made on you "not even being a registared user", use of the word "disgraceful".... But perhaps the former is the truth. Tikallover 21:04, 22 September 2006 (UTC)

• Correction! I fixed that particular article and they said it is much better! :)

That's great! And well, if you're still looking for things to do, I'm not exactly sure what you can do (since I'm kinda not sure what to do myself), but you could help me rewrite some things that are in fragments. Anyway, I think you edit very nicely! And I don't think you're sensitive to criticism - some users on Wikipedia are just mean. "Disgraceful" is such a strong word that's not even true! I think you're a great editor, a great friend, a great artist, and a great author! --71.105.12.4 18:24, 23 September 2006 (UTC)

Wow, thanks! That means a lot to me! Tikallover 18:26, 23 September 2006 (UTC)

Hey, you know, I actually found a small article that talks a bit about what the western world thinks about Fulla: http://simivalleysophist.blogspot.com/2005/10/barbie-vs-fulla-cultural-clash.html. I'm not sure exactly how to put it into the article, so perhaps you can! Unless of course the information isn't very good, since it's still kinda talking about Muslims... --71.105.12.4 18:30, 23 September 2006 (UTC)

Hmmm... It doesn't really say that Westerners dislike the doll and what she promotes... Maybe I'm just not looking hard enough... Tikallover 18:41, 23 September 2006 (UTC)

Well, I just read it again, and it was talking about a Muslim disliking it, but that won't help. Anyhow, we just have to keep looking, and we'll find an article that's discussing what people in the Western world think about Fulla! --71.105.12.4 18:56, 23 September 2006 (UTC)

Okay. So have you been doing anything else lately? Tikallover 23:49, 23 September 2006 (UTC)

Hmm...not really, but I'm still working on my drawings and the Skies of Arcadia book thing. But this Monday, I'm going to get my appliance in my mouth so my arch will be wider. Originally, I wasn't going to get it, but my mommy fought hard for it with the dentist, so now, I have to get it. She says it's good for breathing and speech, so I guess I have to get it. I guess the uncomforatableness will be worth it...I hope... besides that, nothing else is really happening. Is anything else happening with you? --71.105.12.4 02:16, 24 September 2006 (UTC)

I might sound stupid, but what is an arch? Also, no, nothing is really happening with me. Tikallover 02:26, 24 September 2006 (UTC)

I don't think its sounds stupid - I didn't know what it was myself at first! Anyway, an arch is an appliance that goes on the roof of your mouth and is designed to make it higher, so you can breath easier and speak better and so the teeth can fit in your mouth without looking like it's crowded. There was also one that could be attached to your head (this is real!). --71.105.12.4 06:25, 24 September 2006 (UTC)

Wow... well, I hope it works! What happens if it is attached to the head? (sorry if I'm being nosy) Tikallover 17:56, 24 September 2006 (UTC)

No, I don't think you're being nosy. I'd be curious too, if someone told me that! Anyway, it still helps your arch, and it supposed to be less uncomfortable, but I wouldn't want to walk outside with it. --71.118.87.227 18:16, 24 September 2006 (UTC)

Interesting. I can see why you wouldn't want to walk outside with it. Tikallover 20:03, 24 September 2006 (UTC)

Today, I got my arch and my lower braces!! You know, the arch isn't actually what I expected it to look like. Instead of being a flat metal blockish thing (like I thought), it was actually like a wire instead. However, like I expected, it made it harder to speak clearly because my tongue kept hitting it when I'm talking. Right now, my mouth feels so full of metal! At least this is only for about eight months, and not about two years, like my braces. --71.105.13.232 21:21, 25 September 2006 (UTC)

It doesn't sound like very much fun... I'm sorry about that. I actually pictured it as a curved metal bridge-like thing. I hope you'll be okay with it! It doesn't hurt, does it? (Again, sorry if I'm being nosy.) Tikallover 21:28, 25 September 2006 (UTC)

Well, at times, my teeth ache, cause they're probably trying to move, but otherwise, it's just uncomfortable. Of course, it might be just uncomfortable today, and might hurt tomorrow, cause my mommy told me that sometimes it doesn't hurt at first until the next day. --71.105.13.232 04:21, 26 September 2006 (UTC)

I'm really sorry about that... I hope it will stop being uncomfortable and not hurt. Tikallover 14:04, 26 September 2006 (UTC)